In the name of the Holy Father, and the Holy Son, and the Holy Spirit, One God Amen
Selam everyone
I haven't taken Holy Communion since February and a lot of times everytime i try to i feel like something happens that makes me stop.
I have been trying to take Holy Communion and last week when i tried to i didn't because i didn't feel ready and connected to God so i thought i'd try to take it next week(2moro). I still don't feel close to God as I should and don't feel like i repented with my heart because i didn't feel anything change in my heart when praying. So my spiritual life right now is not at its high right now. DO i have to wait until i feel ready or should i just take it? I am scared because Holy Communion is not a joke. I now i'm thinking maybe i should take it next week, God Willing, at the end of this fast making sure that i prepare my self more stricter, God Willing. But who knows whats going to happen b4 then...Thank God that i am here again without anything happening to me. What should i do???HELP ME
May God give you His wisdom to answer this question according to His Holiest Will
May the LORD have mercy on us all sinners among whom i am first
Comments
plz pry for my weakness
you've confessed and taken every "technical" step before communion, so i think the only thing left is to ask God with all your heart to make you worthy of communion, as there is nothing any of us can do on our own to become worthy of communion, only he can make us worthy, and take it tomorrow....
please pray for me and my weakness
do the math
No one will ever be "worthy" to take the Holy Communion- just read the prayer that is supposed to be said before Communion at the back of the agpeya. That prayer is supposed to encourage repentance and to humble ourselves before Christ, acknowledging our sins. The Orthodox Church has guidelines that tell us when we should not partake such as when we are fighting with someone, but don't worry if you feel "unworthy" because that is the right thing to feel ;)
so it's normal not to feel worthy.
what's dangerous is when u keep behaving badly towards God with no intention to stop sinning, don't repent and then just take communion in order to look good to other people.
i don't think this is your case, so once u have spoken to your FOC, just take it.
in some churches, as we know the Holy Body and Blood are treated really casually, and that's wrong. but in other churches they go to the other extreme and people hardly ever take communion.
u know, God is not up there waiting with a big stick. He really loves us and can't wait to get closer to us, He does everything to keep us walking with Him and is not trying to catch us out with some tiny rule we can break without knowing it.
in the 800s and after there was a time in the catholic and some eastern orthodox churches where people hardly ever took Holy communion.
then once the real purpose of going to church was gone, people started treating church as a social club. they thought were not worthy to take communion anyway so stopped trying. these churches had to work hard to get back on track and remind people that church is about each person's spiritual life.
Holy communion is a blessing God is longing to give u. none of us are worthy of it, He just requires repentance and a willingness to work at living a Holy life.