something perplexing me a bit

Proverbs of Solomon

Like a foul odour is it when a man of integrity lets himself sin

This may be my only topic on this forum as much as I love it

This topic is about something private but here it is. I feel bad to say this about someone important to me but I hope it is not too big of problem to say it.
I don't know if this is an all important topic but it may be

Things have been rather well for me with my health but I sometimes get bored and curious and just go astray a little bit.

I sometimes fall into lust because I feel at the moment other people do it and it may help me socially if I expose myself to more things in the world. Preferrably it has no lustful content but most things of today do :?


I suffered a little health problem which was causing me physical pain a while back which gave me a little bit of an excuse to indulge myself in sin a little.. however I could have controlled myself but it would have been tougher because I felt my sickness would not get better

I hope noone is suffering things more than they can handle

Now to the main point of my topic is this:
I told my mum because I felt bad and she says to me you are not to blame you are just a man.

Its not that I want to be punished by her but perhaps she should have treated the issue a little differently.

It seems like something the devil told her to say. So does my mother flatter me in this area?

I remember Father Anthony said the devil wants you to be tough on yourself like you are better than this

I may end up in the same pattern again and again because I feel my needs are not being met. I am suffering from this social problem very much

Thanks