Thank you all for you responses.
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I'm glad to know I'm not alone.- I do feel stuck but I never felt that God is holding me back. However awful I felt, I never could even fantasise about living without my christianity - it is all I know how t…
I really can't thank you both enough for your responses mabsoota and Tobit. Tobit especially, what you said really hit home. After I posted this topic, I opened my Agpeya for the first time in weeks, and prayed the Twelfth Hour. It wasn't a pure pra…